"Life
Heath
Happiness
Open Paths
Health in the Body, Peace in the Spirit, Love in the Heart
It is this that we wish, for ourselves, for mother earth, and for our brothers and sisters
So be it"
Heath
Happiness
Open Paths
Health in the Body, Peace in the Spirit, Love in the Heart
It is this that we wish, for ourselves, for mother earth, and for our brothers and sisters
So be it"
It never ends
Some higher being must be trying to teach me a lesson in the art of zen. Rewind to a week before I was to leave for Peru. I find out our building is to be exterminated for bed bugs - REALLY, it´s my worst nightmare come true. I had to launder or dry clean my entire wardrobe - which is no small feat, clear out closets, drawers & bookshelves & pack everything up, push all furniture into the center of the room (technically 16 inches from the wall), and oh yeah, pack for my trip. I packed and cleaned down to the 11th hour, simultaneously shoving clothing into bags (screw compliance, I had no time!), packing up camping gear, and packing stuff from bookshelves to boxes. The best part is that my parents are coming for thanksgiving - we´ll be hanging out amidst garbage bags of clothes and pencil-sized holes in every 6 inches of wall. I do my last load of laundry the morning of my flight, absentmindedly shoving a bunch of washed clothing into my daypack. I think "Just in case the airline loses my bags again." Then, "But that can´t happen two trips in a row, right??" Wrong. It can, and did. And in Peru, it takes them SEVEN days to get the bags back to you. Six of those days, the bag was already in Lima and just sitting there. They never bothered to call me or to put it on a flight to Cuzco, even though there are 13 flights a day from Lima to Cuzco. Then, they couldn´t find the retreat center (which is no big surprise because it was secluded in some random tiny village), but rather than call me, they decide to return the bag back to Lima?! Luckily, Carlos (right-hand man of yoga retreat owner) intercepted and talked them into giving him the bag, and he delivered to the retreat center.
The retreat center
Is an oasis hidden in a small hamlet called Harim - just past Calca - in the Sacred Valley. We sleep in teepees surrounded by a lush garden of cactus, flora, vegetables, and against a backdrop of a waterfall and the Andes mountains. Everyday, a bell in the morning calls for us to get fruit and tea prior to yoga. Another bell rings the start of a two-hour yoga session in the ´temple´ - a circular structure with windows all around and a stained glass skylight. After class, bell again summons us to a hearty vegetarian brunch (my mouth drools in memory) - including sun-baked bread and some form of eggs. Then, it´s the activity of the day (sightseeing, market etc), followed by dinner at 5, and evening meditation. Every night, the sky is filled with dazzling stars of a completely foreign constellation. There is no north star or big dipper, and we can´t figure out which one is the southern cross. The stars pulsate intensely. I´ve never seen them vibrate so vividly.
High altitude
We arrived in Cuzco at 12,000 ft, then descended to the Sacred Valley at 9,900 ft.The altitude made me, first, very, very sleepy. It also makes you have really bad gas, indigestion, and livid, hallucinatory dreams. One of the more frightening dreams, during which I screamed and woke myself up, was that I was about to be eaten by a vampire. Must´ve been that gigantic (and I mean GIGANTIC) tarantula-like spider that I saw crawling around in our teepee.
Meditation
The first meditation session was only 10 minutes, it felt like 30. During which I hallucinated a perspectival view of a medievil town with stonewalls and a cathedral tower in the distance, then I thought about my missing bags, thought about writing - breathe, breathe, breathe - thought about my numb legs - breathe, breathe. My second meditation session involved visualization. A rose in bloom at the heart center, and a diamond in your third eye (space in between and slight higher than eyebrows). Imagine someone who is a.) easy to love b.) an acquaintance c.) difficult to love, chant internally, projecting mental and physical happiness, wisdom, compassion and freedom from suffering onto that person. Even though my mind wandered to a.) what I needed to pack for Machu Picchu b.) my lost bags c.) my numb legs, this was kinda cool.
Sound Bites (from my head)
"Shamanism is the new spiritualism, plus it´s trendy in LA."
"I think this group is a tad too new age-y for me."
Ollantaytambo
We walked around the town and got a guided tour of the ruins. We learned that the Incans believed that the condor is a symbol of power, and a spiritual messenger between the dead and the gods, and the moon and sun. That´s really cool.
Having a moment
On day three, I woke up feeling like I hadn´t slept. I was short of breathe, slightly nauseous and had tossed around all night. Yoga class was energizing but strenuous, and I was still short of breathe. After a huge breakfast, I almost fainted (there goes my low blood sugar theory). Spoonfuls of sugar and emergen-C instantly revived, but I was still shaky for the next few hours. I took half an acetazolamide (meds for altitude sickness) against my better judgement, and this made me extremely dehydrated, even more light-headed and woozy, and ultimately feverish. I went to take a nap, and as I lay there, my mind started to spin. I was surrounded by a group of people all day long, and yet they weren´t ´my´people, and I never felt more alone. I burst into tears. I realized I was homesick, which was a first for me. I must be getting sentimental in old age.
Machu Picchu
Do people chase after spirituality because they´re unhappy in their present life? Or is there something truly fulfilling about bringing spirituality into the here and now? We´ve spent the last two days in the company of a Shaman, who gave us a guided tour of the sacred sites of Machu Picchu, and led us in various sacred ceremonies at these sites -
chanting into a sacred stone wall, group OM-ing into a stone enclosure to close, praying in an opening ceremony to ask permission to enter Machu Picchu. He also led us in a San Pedro (cactus) plant ceremony. It was indescribable really, sitting high up on Machu Picchu mountain peering across at Machu Picchu. We were the guardians of Machu Picchu. Clouds roll and curl around the folding mountains, just like in a chinese painting. At one point I had a moment with the mountains, and for the second time on this trip, burst into tears (maybe it´s PMS?). I didn´t really find fulfillment in this type of experience (anymore anyway). We were supposed to have been going on a sacred and spiritual journey, to be awakened, and yet, there was more rollicking and goofing off (which is fine but you don´t need to ingest a plant substance to do this do you?) than being ´spiritual´. I´d rather find joy in the present tense - loving someone and being loved, being with family and friends, eating yummy pork tacos. And perhaps this was exactly the lesson that Machu Picchu had intended for me.
When it comes down to it, spirituality is a religion - because it holds the promise of something better than this life, the hope of a more enlightened, fulfilled after-life. And plant medicine (San Pedro and Ayuhuasca) seem to be the vehicles by which one can glimpse the potential beyond our present life, via connecting with the power of mother earth. But how does all this help one better their present life? And, the irony is that these plant ceremonies (both San Pedro and Ayuhuasca) have been commoditized in Cuzco, with signs all over town marketing these ceremonies as if they were white water rafting or trekking.
Coca leaf reading
I know, sounds hoky, that´s what I thought too. And of course, it´s all about marketing - the reader says what you want and need to hear, all the things that you already know intuitively deep down, but just need the affirmation. Presentation is key, and her presentation was flawless, and shook me to the core (I bawled for like the gazillionth time on this trip). My original intentions on this trip (stated almost as an after-thought because I had to as part of a ´circle´) were to figure out my life´s path and to open my heart. The coca leaf reader went straight to both of these points - that I needed to fulfill my creative potential, that that was my form of spirituality, and through this I´d find happiness and love. This was my awakening.
